New York Mets pitcher R.A. Dickey reveals being sexually abused as a child in his memoir, as well as being confronted with drug use while a member of the Texas Rangers.
Dickey's personal story goes on sale this week. Excepts were published by Sports Illustrated.
The right-hander discusses how he was abused at the hands of a teenage babysitter as an 8-year-old.
"The babysitter chucks the pillows and stuffed animals out of the way," Dickey writes, in his autobiography. "Wherever I Wind Up." "She looks at me and says, Get in the bed. I am confused and afraid. I am trembling. The babysitter has her way with me four or five more times that summer, and into the fall, and each time feels more wicked than the time before. Every time that I know I'm going back over there, the sweat starts to come back. I sit in the front seat of the car, next to my mother, anxiety surging. I never tell her why I am so afraid. I never tell anyone until I am 31 years old."
As an adult, Dickey also describes the disgust he felt when he saw a syringe in 2001. He appeared in four games that season, but spent most of the year with Triple-A Oklahoma City.
"The sight of it makes me cringe, the shiny thin needle lying randomly on the tile floor," Dickey writes. "My mind races with thoughts about how and why it got there. I know as much about needles as I do about jewelry, but I'm pretty sure this isn't a sewing needle. I don't know if this syringe injected a Ranger with insulin or cortisone or B12 or anabolic steroids, though you can hazard a guess when you run through the roster of my muscle-laden teammates.
"I'd never seen a syringe in a baseball clubhouse before. I've not seen one since. It may have been used for the most benign of purposes, but the mere sight of it makes me feel as though I am looking straight at Evil -- like seeing a weapon somebody left behind at a crime scene."